Geez, Negative Nancy!

I'm feeling much better now. I realize that I have very little control over the job situation, so I'll do what I can and try not to worry. I've always been a worry wart but lately I'm finding it easier to let go. We always make the best decisions we know how and work hard to make a good life for Brenden. There's no point in worrying about the rest.

Brenden had his first day of school today, and he did great! He was only there for two hours so he didn't get to experience naptime (our biggest worry since we still rock him to sleep), but he didn't cry at all and had a great time exploring his new playroom. We love the daycare we picked and luckily there are only 6 kids in his room right now.

Now it's time to do some resume critiquing!

Don't Count Your Chickens Before They're Hatched

Adam was SO CLOSE to having a really good job, so we thought, but we found out today that he's probably not getting it. It was a big blow. I was feeling so great, like all of the hard work with this move and all of the uncertainty was finally paying off, and we were about to be settled. It was going to be a job Adam would probably actually like, with decent pay and benefits, and a mostly decent schedule. Now we're back to wondering if he's going to end up with a minimum wage job he hates working nights and weekends. We are very fortunate to have some savings left and the support of our family if we get desperate, but more than the money, it's important to me to feel settled. I'm tired of wondering how this or that is going to pan out. There have been a million variables and it's exhausting. Today it felt like the bubble of energy keeping me going through all this just popped.

I also have an earrache, and then I broke our nice candle holder, and then Brenden pooped in the bathtub. He's never done that before and it never even crossed my mind that I would find myself having to clean that out of the tub! If I ever get around to printing these blogs for a scrapbook, I'm sure he'll be thrilled to see I posted his bathroom habits on the internet.

Sigh...Brenden just woke up...guess this will be a rough night to match this crappy day...