Meltdown

Brenden had a major meltdown today. He was happy all morning until we went to my company picnic. It was loud, hot, and bright in the sun, so even though we only stayed a few minutes, Brenden was angry on the car ride home. Adam and I were bummed out too because the food was all gone by the time we got there, so we were both starving. Brenden cried so hard he had tears running down his beet red face, and he was inconsolable. But as soon as we got home, we got him out of his sweaty outfit and wet diaper, and after a marathon nursing session he passed out.

On a happier note, I was surprised with a big bonus. I didn't expect to get one since I'm on maternity leave. To celebrate I'm going to take an extra week off (I hadn't given my boss a firm return date yet, so I'll see if I can arrange it for August 12.) We're also going to buy a few things we need for the house. I am nervous about going back to work. It was overwhelming being around so many of my co-workers and their families just for a few minutes today. I feel a bit out of the loop, and I feel a little sick to my stomach when I think about not being with Brenden 24/7. I know he'll be fine at home with his Daddy, but I'll probably be an emotional wreck. It will be a tough adjustment, but I'm trying not to focus on that too much right now - I still have almost a month!